FOR O

 

I wish you were here to see that I finally found true love

I wish I could tell you of the pain I’ve been masking 

I think I’m doing such  a great job, O! 

When I said I’ll make you proud, I wasn’t bluffing 

I hope you’re really proud of me though 

You know sometimes I wonder if everything that happened didn’t, if perhaps we might still be in communication 

You know me, I push people away and I don’t know how to keep the communication going for long.

O! Do you know that I’ll dedicate a chapter of my book to you? 

Do you also know that sometimes, I still break down in dirty ugly tears when I remember you?

Perhaps, it’s a good thing that you’re gone because now you can watch over me from an eagles eyes

I wish there was something I could have done, you know 

Considering that you remembered me in your last moments

I can’t even make out your face again. 

I try to but it’s  a blur representation I get and that makes me really sad

Till I see you again, O! 

I hope gists are allowed in heaven because I’ve got so many things to tell you! 

For my friend, A.O